That's okay, I didn't mean to be honest anyway.

Turns out I'm not so good at updating this as I seem to want to be.  As a result, I constantly say that I'm going to update more frequently, then don't.  At this point, it's safe to assume I'm lying to you.

Then again, it doesn't seem like it's been that long since I've updated this.  Most of the last week or so has been a bit of a blur.  On Tuesday, I celebrated my 21st by discovering my drink limits.  Other than that, I've applied for four jobs and have heard back from zero, so this summer was looking about as lazy as last summer.

Until, that is, today.  I got two letters in the mail from my college.  Collectively, they told me that I was fucked.  My GPA dropped too low, and they are kicking me out.

Fuck.

Weird how that happened after a couple of semesters I was sure about, but going back I realize that I failed four classes and didn't get one grade above a C in the last year.  I don't know how that slipped my mind, but it seems to have done just that.  I had completely forgotten my grades from last fall, and I thought I was doing well this spring.  Alas, it's looking grim now.  The plan at the moment is to go to the local university and beg them to take me so that I'm going somewhere closer to home.  Maybe that'll get me out of the slump Mom is convinced I'm in.  She thinks my grades are low because I don't enjoy where I am, which may be the problem.  I'm not sure.  I just know that I can't seem to focus on anything down there, so I've come to terms with the fact that I may have to go to my hometown's college.

Even though that's what I wanted to avoid more than anything.

I have never believed in quitting, and that seems to be what I'm doing.  I hate myself for giving up on my current college, but at the same time I wasn't giving it my all.

I need to talk about something happier...

Oh, how about this: all of my friends seem to have gotten jobs outside of my hometown this summer so I'll be sitting on my ass doing nothing with no one knowing that next fall I won't be going back to school.

FUCK!

Excuse my language, I'm just a little on-edge about this.  I'm going to the college tomorrow to see if they'll take me up here.  Wish me luck, my nonexistant readers!

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